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Hey it’s June!

Half of the year pass, 151 days are gone, you have used your 3,624 hours. We just welcomed 2017 and now we are down to the month of JUNE.

How was your year so far? Were you able to cross out at least one from your bucket list for this year? How about that new year resolution you promised yourself to never do ever again?

June is a the month to look back from the last five months and reflect on what and where we spent our time in to.

Is it worthwhile? did you spent your time in doing good or complaining? Do you worry a lot last month?

These are some of the questions I asked myself as I welcome June 2017. It makes me smile. because I saw progress.

Well yes, the changes I want in my life for this year will not happen drastically but slowly and surely.

I am happy for what is happening in my life this year. 2017 is the year of making firm decisions for me. I have been saying NO to most of the things that I know will bring future problems and I have become careful in saying YES.

I choose to open up my world. From the girl who’s always in her room, to that girl who would love to listen to your stories while drinking coffee in a coffee shop. I now reply to text messages that I seldom do last year. I still get named as “seener” but now I try to reply to everyone. Sorry people I still fail on this part.

This year I was able to publish this blog, it is the most exciting part of my 2017. Thanks to a friend who encouraged me to share this to everyone. I always tell myself na “saka ko na to ipapublish, nahihiya ako eh baka kase ijudge lang”. I remember how he pushed me to let other people know this site. His words opened my mind to do it now.

I have hesitations in my head. But I praise the Lord for his life who happens to message his friends and some youths to recommend my blog and read it (wow grabe effort 🙂 thanks to you!). This blog is the only thing that makes me KILIG this year. Hearing and reading some of your messages about how God spoke to you through this, makes my heart jump for joy.

I cried as well. I feel fulfilled and that finally my heart’s desire is now on work. Your messages inspires me to continue this even I have setbacks before.

There was this one time I am sitting at the back of the church with some KKBs. A guy kkb asked me:

ate ano nga ung blog mo?

I was about to answer it and the other kkb who was sitting with us answered the question for me.

theestherinsideofus.wordpress.com

I looked at her and laugh because she perfectly knows the domain. She knows the domain better than I am for sometimes I’m confused if its theestherinsideus or theestherinsideofus.

I am so blessed that there are young ladies who visits this site. You have a choice to go somewhere else on the web but you took time to be here and read my heart out! Thank you Queens!  My prayer is still the same. I pray that it will speak to you. that it will penetrate your heart and you will find your convictions clear as you read here.

let me give God what belongs to Him.

ALL GLORY AND PRAISES AND HONOR AND ADORATION BE UNTO GOD!

This year many opportunities are knocking at my door. My heart is overwhelmed with joy. It is indeed true that when you let go the thing you keep holding in your hands, that’s the time God will take control in your life. I remember last year how I struggle to let go,

Everything is in the mind. we think its hard to give it up but we are wrong. We wrestle but to be honest it’s really easy. Masasabi natin sa sarili natin “dapat matagal ko na pala tong binitawan”

I got opportunity to write. I am excited for this specific project. I got a message that asked me if I want to write. I said yes right away. Why not? I’m gonna share my thoughts and convictions to a wider audience, plus I will learn new things. But also I have second thoughts. I doubt again.

But my desire to glorify God through blogging is far greater than the fears and doubts in me.

I told myself last year that my goal for this year is simple. To live peacefully and be faithful.

I can say now that I am living peaceful. Yes sometimes I still struggle to maintain that peacefulness because I have battles in my head. I over think things. and I don’t think I become faithful last five months. With my tithes, with my ministry, with my studies. I don’t feel I have become consistent on this area.

 And that it’s definitely okay. We do not wake up the next day perfect.

I am working on it. God is working on it. The year is not yet over.

So to you, Queens in the making.

How are you today?

How was your year so far? Are you struggling?

A painful even happened this 2017? 

How is your heart?

This is the perfect time for you to think, to pray and be thankful. You can even ask for forgiveness if you feel your failing.

But please do not be hard on yourself, Please be gentle and know that life always have its ups and downs. That pain is part of growing. And that its okay if you feel like your goals are far from reach. Remember it will never happen overnight.

Be thankful for your life. That you are still alive and still have 6 more months to make this year extra ordinary for the Lord.

If there are things you know you have to let go. Let it go! Sing that song from frozen. Do not let it hold you and stops you from becoming the Lady God has pictured you to be. Don’t delay it anymore. Don’t cause too much pain in your self.

I hope you find yourself in a place where God wants you to walk. I am praying for you always!

Let us be positive for this month of JUNE and to the months to come!

CHEERS TO EVERY ESTHER INSIDE US!

Condemned?YES. 

I know how you feel. It may not be as exactly as the intensity of what you are feeling right now. But believe me when I say..

I know how you feel. 

I know how hard it is to avoid the things that’s pushing you to sin again. I have been there. I know how much you wanted to avoid it, but your flesh and lust is greater than your desire to overcome. I know how foolish you became and say that you will just ask forgiveness after.

This particular sin is eating you not little by little but as much as it can eat you at a time. I know how many times you cried and asked for help. And how depressing it is to feel paralysed and just allow sin to consume you. All of you. I know that you feel condemned right now. How unworthy you are to be called a Queen.

Trust me I know. 

There are so many questions in your head. And for each answers it wont satisfy you. 

I have been there. Many times. You cannot imagine how many times I sinned and allowed temptations to happen. How many times I allow the enemy to kill, still and destroy me. ALL OF ME

“I am a loser” “hanggang dito nalang ako” ” wala na akong patutunguhan pa”

these are the thoughts I have in my head. And each thoughts leave wounds in my heart. and this questions can be yours too.

But let me remind you something.

You are the righteousness of God. 

You are His daughter. You are Loved. You mean the whole world to Him that He even gave his only Son so He can call you His own, His Child.

A year in your life will not be enough to discuss all your sins but Your lifetime is never enough to count the grace that GOD have for you. 

10,000 times a day God is looking at you. And yes He saw you sinning. But He is looking at you with so much love.

As if you never sin. As if your perfect. 

God is not looking on who you are today. But who you will be in the future.

For you will be His Queen.

You will be willing to die just to give Him Glory.

You will do great things for Him.

You will be a woman of Faith.

A Giant Slayer. You are strong. Mindful and full of happiness.

For the old has gone. The new has come. 

What happened today won’t matter in the future. For what matters tomorrow is who you choose to become for His Glory.

Wipe those tears in your face. your mascara makes your eyebags darker.

Take a deep breath. Fight again. Smile. 🙂

Make a decision that you will not allow satan to take a hold on you. 

And last.

PRAY.

Heavenly Father. My King. My Savior

The heavens and all the earth are yours. Right now my prayer is that whoever reading this post. A Queen in a making who may be feeling down, upset or condemned. I pray that you comfort them. I pray that you remind them how much you love and care for their souls. That you have forgiven them 2000 years ago. Lord, I ask that you remind them that there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. that you already made us Your Righteousness. Forgive our sins. Forgive us if we allow the enemy to tempt us to do what for sure breaks your heart. 

Thank you. For your grace that is never-ending. We promise that we will stand for you. That we will live to make you smile. We love you Jesus. 

Amen.